"My son, stand back up. I know this is the thousandth time you've fallen. I know you will fall again. I know you feel bad, and I know you feel like there's no hope. but I need you to know that there is. and it's in Me. so hey, get up once more. look straight into My eyes, and this time.. please don't look away."
aight its time to take that step. this has been going on for long enough, and all its been doing is being a complete hindrance to my walk with God. this has been a lifelong struggle, this constant struggle with seeing girls and the pride that comes with that.
the thoughts of trying to impress girls. the habitual sin of lusting. the outer indifference but the inner romantic passion. the romantic thoughts of you and me.
i’m determined to stop. i’m determined to press forward.
i vowed not to date now because i didnt want to have divided attention, but even so.. with all this pent-up passion and romance in me.. i find myself thinking of romance more and more. there isnt a day that goes by when i dont think of you, you little noob.
but God’s changing me. this is it. i know that God wouldnt want me to give in and potentially damage my faith, the youth group, other brothers and sisters, etc.
i refuse to succumb to this romantic passion built up inside me. instead, i’m going to direct it ALL to GOD. to my Father who DESERVES every ounce of my romance, my passion, my love.
let these thoughts of romancing my sisters CHANGE into thoughts of loving YOU.
let this romantic passion in my heart that is constantly seeking worldly companionship be CHANGED into a romantic passion for YOU, my Father.
its time. its time to deny myself in this area of my life. it’s time for me to realize that for the next few years, the only romantic feelings i should welcome are romantic feelings about you LORD.
so help me, please. help me change my attitude and my heart Lord. help me, because i know its your GRACE that allows me to come to this realization. as i come to this realization, please allow me to take ACTION and really live in this grace you’ve given me.
everything. all of me. always. every day. for You Lord. be my everything.
“…people resist forgiveness because they don’t want to be prideful. Remembering how rotten they are makes them feel good, but it’s actually a subtle form of pride. People moan and groan, “I’m not worthy!” Of course we’re not worthy! It’s time we get over it and live the Christian life anyway. Living under yesterday’s condemnation doesn’t make us more humble. If anything, it keeps us focused on ourselves instead of the Lord. It’s much more difficult to humbly receive forgiveness we don’t deserve than to walk in false humility, cloaked in yesterday’s shame. When we receive free forgiveness, the One who gave it to us is honoured. When He is honoured, we are truly humbled.”—bjohnson (via samuelychoi)
man.. as i come to grips with reality.. i realize that im really not as gifted academically as i thought. a little above mediocre, at best. haha.. humbalized.. it really is a little depressing to think about..
as i get my last practice test result back and as im doing my math homework (that i dont understand).. i just cant help but feel so bad for my mom. she’s paying so much for me.. she has such high hopes for me..
ahhh.. i dont know if i can do it umma, but you can be sure i’ll be trying hard. i may not be anywhere near the smartest, but i’ll work as hard as i can. i pray that God will allow me to be the best student i can be.
maybe God has a different calling for me. i don’t know. but all i know is that.. for now, i’ll be working hard with the land i own.
who you are as an individual has a bigger impact than you think.
i’d like to consider this a devotional. just a thought that’s been planted into my head by our God recently. i pray that He may continue to help this thought grow in me and eventually let it be rooted deep in my heart.
as i grow older, i come to realize this simple truth more and more.
the more i speculate this world and the people around me, i realize that so much change is needed. a greater influence, if you will. God is the one i want influencing this world. not only influencing me, but i want God manifesting His Spirit into this WORLDS’ thoughts, motives, actions, etc. however, God uses US to do His will.
with complacency and apathy embedded into so many “Christians” today, the jaded will only become more jaded. the weak in faith will become less faithful. i think it a terrible prospect to believe that CHRISTIANS are the ones turning people away from God. when will the jaded become softened, and when will the weak in faith become strong? God can use you and me.
God wants us to live above reproach, it’s very clear in scripture. Phil. 2:15. i’ve come to realize that we make reputations for ourselves, most often based on our actions and what we outwardly express. whether we choose to acknowledge it or let it fly past our heads, people have an image of us. and i strongly believe that genuine Christians, genuine DISCIPLES of Christ shouldn’t have the mindset "forget what people think about me, i dont care. ima do me." no.. because its not about us. when we call ourselves Christians, we’re representing someone greater. we’re representing our savior, Jesus Christ.
if we’re not letting God take over, our heart and attitude may not be in the right place. and if we as Christians don’t take action upon our hearts and these attitudes.. our actions, thoughts and motives will inevitably become centered upon everything but God. and AS A RESULT of those actions, thoughts and motives, we won’t be above reproach.
nobody’s perfect. no one is righteous, not even one. BUT Christ was perfect. and it’s Christ that lives inside of us! it’s CHRIST that intercedes for us. so let’s welcome Christ and allow Him to influence all that we do.
my brothers and sisters, let’s love more. let’s reach out to the hurt, the lost. let’s not partake in coarse joking. let’s keep our talk wholesome and lets build each other up according to our needs, not our wants. let’s allow our hearts to BREAK at the notion of sin. let’s serve others, let’s take no pride for ourselves. instead, let’s live in humility towards one another. on this earth, let’s show people a glimpse of God’s love.
i pray that people can look at us, and see something living inside of us. that they may see Christ in all His glory.
LETS GO! :]
personal prayer- God.. my father. i pray that you may use me. that i may not be an empty vessel, and that you may use me to do big things. let me not glorify myself in ANYTHING, but let me give you all the glory. why? because the love placed in my heart is only a product of your love for me. it was your grace that allowed me to see.. now allow me to give my all to YOU. Father, i hope i may realize how big of an impact i have on people. my actions, my thoughts and my motives can have big effects on the people around me. therefore, let my actions, thoughts, and motives glorify you. always. please continue to cleanse my personality and mold me into who you want me to be so that naturally and effectively, i may be a light that attracts people to you. truly, be my everything God. in your Son’s name i pray, amen.
I say "GOD IS GOOD!", you say "ALL THE TIME!" ready? GOD IS GOOD!!! :DDD haha that was our little thing at our VBS ^ - ^ i think you've been to my church, i just missed it though :P not to be creepy or anything XD
hahah, nono. if youre a sister, i dont find it creepy. we’re all united by one bond.
and amen, an elementary teaching we are taught, yet still always so true and so profound.
but might i ask, whats your name? hahaha and what church?